1. coughing for me got even more bad. cant stop coughing. eat medicine. but like no help one. maybe its because i anyhow eat things. eat sweet. drink cold. eat ice-cream. blame who? blame myself!
2. tomorrow will need to go down to camp at 0730 hours. the main guard got mc. so i need to replace. so it means there go my weekend. now already 2130. 10 more hours. so fast.
3. lastly. quarrel today. ending might be very bad.

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had a talk to valerie. realise that she and his boyfriend also facing what i'm facing. realise that we guys cannot keep on asking you girls to be understanding. but did we guys ever be understanding? we only know to ask you all be. but we once be understanding.

why will you all be angry when we do not spend time with you all? because for 5 days a week. you cant see us. and you miss us so much. all you all want is more care from us. more time from us. but it always seem that friends are much more important. everything seems much more important then you. all you want is very very simple. that we can give you a good hug. show you that we care. let you know that you are important to us. but even when it is so simple. we cant do it. you think for us in everyway. but we only think for ourselves and not you. we take you for granted. we are at fault for all the thing that is happening. we use NS as an excuse. we are really jerks! we always say we will change. but in the end we also never.

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had this thinking just now. why God give me happiness for a week and allow me to be sadden another. but i ask myself another question. why is this happening? read the bible in Matthew 14:31 it say. "Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. 'You of little faith,' he said, 'why did you doubt?'" also in John 14:1. "Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me." sometimes i do doubt whether he really loves me. how come he can let me be so happy today and so sad tomorrow? but this shows i should not doubt him. really should not.

just now when the guy called me to ask me replace him. i lost my cool and want to scold him. but God used my mum to cool me down. she not a christian. but God used her to cool me down. and in the bible in Matthew 5:46. "If you love those who love you, what reward will you get?" and also 5:44. "But i tell you: Love your enemies and pray for those wh0 persecute you." So instead of cursing and swearing at him. I just go down a do the duty. It won kill also.

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that is all. got nothing much to say already. still coughing. still very sad. but at least got something to be happy for. my boss and his "first lady". must be loving and funny. wr will be laughing all the way when he's out.

God bless all who love Him!