Saturday, August 29, 2009
20years into my life.
20years as their son.
i have did nothing for them at all.
or should i say, i had did nothing that is good for them at all. bring them worries and troubles? ya.
thinking back for the past 20years.
even as a kid i got knock down by a car to worry them.
in primary school my form teacher can call every week to complain about me not doing my homework.
in secondary school all i do is play and waste my time away. in the end not getting into anything after my O's.
after secondary, did some stupid thing that need them to worry and spend 500 odd dollars for my mistake.
now?
just what is wrong with me?
i dont deserve this good parents that im having. they are just too good for me. i dont think that im fit to be their son. not fit to call them my dad and mum.
for they love me so much.
yet?
i choose not to answer their call.
i choose not to reply their messages.
i choose to avoid them.
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i'm really sorry for everything that i have done. you all love me so much. yet i'm just a useless son that does nothing for you all. does nothing at all for this family as the eldest son at home.
i'm sorry.