Sunday, October 25, 2009
25th October 2009, Sunday.
Day 2.
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second day i did not talk to you for the whole day. received call and message. whenever i walk towards my phone, before i look at it. How i wish it was you who sent me the message. In my heart i know it won't be you, but still i hope it will be.
it just wasn't you.
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this is the first weekend that i did not spend with you. felt that my life is so empty without you by my side. the day is so long, the night is even longer.
i am very tired, but i couldn't fall asleep.
i am very hungry, but i couldn't bring myself to eat.
i am very sad, but i think i ran out of tears.
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same as yesterday, been thinking about you the whole day.
the urge to call you, to message you, to see you is even stronger. but like you said, you need your time. i must give you the time. i must be mature and not go and bother you just after 2 days again.
even have the urge to go and look for you. but the last person you would want to see should be me.
thinking through alot of things.
looking at the email you sent me over and over again.
being thinking about what you asked me to think. about us in the past and in the future.
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saw the bottle that you used to make tea for me.
saw the cinnamon and apple tea that is beside the printer.
when will you make tea for me again before i go to work?
will i ever get to drink the tea that you make?
when will i talk to you again.
when will i see you again?
when will you call me darling again.
hope all these will end now.
hope that i will get to spend my weekend with you next week.
hope that i will be able to talk to you soon.
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did you think of me today?
do you wish to see me?
do you wish to talk to me?
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just 8 more days to promotion.
will you be there to celebrate it with me?
you were there when i got promoted to CPL.
SGT was what we always wanted, it will be nothing if you're not there.
just 14 more days till we reach 200 days as couple.
will you be there to celebrate that day with me?
just 18 more days till i get my first SGT pay.
will you be there to eat sushi with me just as we promised?
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still waiting.