Happy is the Key!

2010-04-25T21:12:00.002+08:00

诚：今天你开心吗？
龄：开心，我吃sushi，买鞋，我的鞋leh?

this was how we spend our first year celebration.
the road wasn't really smooth as we wanted it, but i want to thank you for everything.
for loving me the way i am,
for still hanging on even when i make mistakes after mistakes.
for being the encouragement when i need one.
most importantly, thanks for letting me have the chance to love you.

I LOVE YOU!

2010-04-06T23:39:00.002+08:00

不知道什么时候
开始喜欢这里
每个夜里
都会来这里看你
你长得这么美丽
叫我不能不看你
看不到你
我就迷失了自己
好想牵你的手
走过风风雨雨
有什么困难我都陪着你
直到天长地久
直到天荒地老
爱的路上只有我和你

不知道什么时候
开始喜欢这里
每个夜里
都会来这里看你
你长得这么美丽
叫我不能不看你
看不到你
我就迷失了自己
有时候你很调皮
总是让人着急
一颗心总是为你跳不停
只要一闭上眼睛
总有千百万个你
你的影子
装满我的脑海里
不能够不想你
也不能够忘记你
总是在梦里一直看到你
多想对你说句
我是真的爱你
对我的心不要再怀疑
好想牵你的手
走过风风雨雨
有什么困难我都陪着你
直到天长地久
直到天荒地老
爱的路上只有我和你

remember this song?
i will hold you hand and walk with you till the end of times and till the end of the world.
i will not leave you halfway. will not die on you halfway.
this is not just a promise. it is a commitment for a lifetime.

the road of love will only have me and you!

2010-04-06T00:18:00.003+08:00

Been so long since i last blogged!
Scolded by my beloved girl for not blogging since so long.
SO here i am people.
Update on my life!
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had my ord last month.
had my birthday last month.
had zoo trip last month.
celebrated 23rd with Darling last month!
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Good Friday.
The day that our Lord died so that we will be saved.
If you really think, who in the world will be so good to suffer and die for you. Not only did He die, He died on the Cross. Boyfriends will say i will die for you, but will anyone die for you on the cross? Or will he really die for you?
One that was perfect without any sins, without any mistakes in life. Yet die so a pitiful death.
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Easter yesterday.
Sermon by Pastor was really a wake up call for me. A slap in the face that also hit the nail on my head.
It is about mercy. In the beatitudes it says that 'Blessed are the merciful for they will be shown mercy'
All of us must be merciful to everyone because God shown us mercy. Like what the Bible also said, do unto others what you want others to do to you. If you do not show mercy to others, likewise do not expect God to show you any mercy when we see him face to face.
Also Pastor said that no matter how good a person is in your eyes. No matter how perfect he or she is. If that person does not know Christ. He is nothing in God's eyes. He maybe the most perfect person to you. But he will only be thrown into Hell and not accepted into Heaven.

So this is really a wake up call for me. To me, my parents are the most wonderful parents in the world. My brothers are the best brothers in the world. But can you believe it that if i do not share the good news to them now. They will not be joining me in heaven, but they will be suffering in hell.
No way i gonna let that happen. No way they will suffer in hell with satan. he want den he suffer himself. not them. God promise that when one in the family know Him, the rest of the members will come to know Him too. Still waiting for my parents to tell me that we shall celebrate Good Friday and Christmas.
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For those who see my entry, do pray for me that i can share the good news with them and that they will go church with me!
till then people.

2010-03-01T20:39:00.002+08:00

went down to ITE today to apply for school.
only then i realize how much time i have really wasted.

-if i had listen to my dad, not playing my life off when i'm in sec 4.
-if i had sat down and choose the course i really wanted and not just choosing something that i didnt wanted.
-if i had finished the course even though i didnt like it in the first place.

all these 'if' are just some of the ways that i had wasted my life. still got more to come i guess.
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i have a clear view of what i want as my family in the future.

-a medium house
-just you and me
-2 dogs, 2 hamsters, 2 turtle

all i need is these to make my life perfect.
but same thing, i am blowing it up i guess.

just wondering what am i good for?
enrolment may seems to be working fine, but is it really working out?
can i train up the GOH to the standard that Capt wants?
DO THINK SO.
enrolment seems to be ok, because WR is doing all the job.
enrolment seems to be ok, because i am just been a trainer.

wondering what is it that i am really good for?
i guess nothing.
all i known for is running away.
GOING MIA.
nothing else i guess.
cant even be a good BF..
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applying a brake to slowing things down. guess soon will be applying my e-brake to stop everything down.

2010-01-30T19:26:00.002+08:00

been looking at my hard-disk for enrolment stuff that was needed.
looking through photos that was under the folder 'darling'.
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i know you love animals a lot.
i know you love the nature a lot.

i admit there are times when i really hope you don't need to go overseas and study. because i can't bear to let you go. but no matter how much i don't want you to go, i will still let you go because i will let you go.
staying in now compare to staying in last time is totally two different thing. because i have grown to love you more now then i used to last time. i have grown so used to seeing you everyday that i can't not see you for a day. it sound like i'm still a kid i know. but loving you can make me become a small little boy.

sound like i'm useless? maybe i am.
because i can't be your pillar of strength when you need one.
because i can't comfort you when i see you crying.
because i can't help you to solve any of the problem that you have.
most importantly, i'm the root of the cause most of the times.

but when i see you tired, and still have so many things to do, i heart shatter into pieces. how i wish you can just sleep at home everyday. at least you won't be tired. i'm sorry i didn't give the encouragement when you needed them most.
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been coughing for 2 weeks and still going.
this cough is really irritating!
affect me is so many ways.

- can't sleep well at sleep.
- can't use my voice.
- can't talk softly (when cough when i do)
there are times when i cough till i want to vomit. =(
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work being bad nowadays. and my ORD is coming soon. should be really happy when one is going to. but somehow i do not because i really don't know what to do after i ORD.

now just sit and just sit..
till then..
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i miss you a lot.

2009-11-08T21:49:00.006+08:00

from 'blank file' to 'Lance'
from 'Lance' to 'CPL'
from 'CPL' to now
SGT!!
I AM SGT CHONG!
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Time flew since i first got promote to PTE back in 23rd May 2008. I had serve and serve till now i am only left with 4 more months to serve. was counting just now on how long on i have and i am left with 17 weeks to see my lovely PINK IC again.

2009-10-27T22:21:00.003+08:00

got nothing to do, so watch youtube with my brothers.
So his girlfriend asked him to watch this. It really nice.
This is for you.
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First is song that Adam Sandler sang to a girl on the plane.
Especially the last few words he said to the girl.
"That song was about you, I'm in love with you"
Grow old with you

I wanna make you smile
Whenever you're sad,
Carry you around when
your arthritis is bad

All i want to do,
is to grow old with you

I'll get you medicine
When your tummy aches,
Build you a fire if the fernace breaks

It could be so nice,
growing old with you

I'll miss you
Kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold

I need you
Feed you
I'll even let you hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink,
Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink

I could be the man who grows old with you,
I wanna grow old with you
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Second song is by westlife
I wanna grow old with you

Another day without your smile,
Another day just passes by.
And now i know how much it means,
For you to stay right here with me.

The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger,
But it hurts so much i can't take it any longer.

I wanna grow old with you,
I wanna die lying in your arms.
I wanna grow old with you,
I wanna be looking in your eyes.
I wanna be there for you, sharing in everything you do.
I wanna grow old with you.

A thousand miles between us now,
It causes me to wonder how.
Our love tonight remains so strong,
It makes our risks right all along.

The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger,
But it hurts so much i can't take it any longer.

I wanna grow old with you,
I wanna die lying in your arms.
I wanna grow old with you,
I wanna be looking in your eyes.
I wanna be there for you, sharing in everything you do.
I wanna grow old with you.

Things can come and go,
I know but,
Baby i believe.
Somethings strong burning between us,
Makes it clear to me.

I wanna grow old with you,
I wanna die lying in your arms.
I wanna grow old with you,
I wanna be looking in your eyes.
I wanna be there for you, sharing in everything you do.
I wanna grow old with you.
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just like the songs.

I WANNA GROW OLD WITH YOU!

2009-10-26T22:15:00.003+08:00

got 2 days MC for headache, cough and diarrhea.
gonna take this 2 days to rest at home and continue working on my grandparents day.
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think I'm enlighten and have seen the light at the end of the road. will stop of the shit that i have done since yesterday till today. will do all those shit no more and just wait.

I'm sorry for all the stupid things that I have done yesterday and today.
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BETWEEN NOW AND THEN,
TILL I SEE YOU AGAIN,
I'LL BE LOVING YOU.
LOVE ME.

2009-10-25T19:08:00.001+08:00

25th October 2009, Sunday.
Day 2.
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second day i did not talk to you for the whole day. received call and message. whenever i walk towards my phone, before i look at it. How i wish it was you who sent me the message. In my heart i know it won't be you, but still i hope it will be.
it just wasn't you.
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this is the first weekend that i did not spend with you. felt that my life is so empty without you by my side. the day is so long, the night is even longer.

i am very tired, but i couldn't fall asleep.
i am very hungry, but i couldn't bring myself to eat.
i am very sad, but i think i ran out of tears.
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same as yesterday, been thinking about you the whole day.
the urge to call you, to message you, to see you is even stronger. but like you said, you need your time. i must give you the time. i must be mature and not go and bother you just after 2 days again.
even have the urge to go and look for you. but the last person you would want to see should be me.

thinking through alot of things.
looking at the email you sent me over and over again.
being thinking about what you asked me to think. about us in the past and in the future.
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saw the bottle that you used to make tea for me.
saw the cinnamon and apple tea that is beside the printer.
when will you make tea for me again before i go to work?
will i ever get to drink the tea that you make?

when will i talk to you again.
when will i see you again?
when will you call me darling again.

hope all these will end now.
hope that i will get to spend my weekend with you next week.
hope that i will be able to talk to you soon.
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did you think of me today?
do you wish to see me?
do you wish to talk to me?
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just 8 more days to promotion.
will you be there to celebrate it with me?
you were there when i got promoted to CPL.
SGT was what we always wanted, it will be nothing if you're not there.

just 14 more days till we reach 200 days as couple.
will you be there to celebrate that day with me?

just 18 more days till i get my first SGT pay.
will you be there to eat sushi with me just as we promised?
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still waiting.

2009-10-25T17:56:00.001+08:00

爱一人

如果你不爱一个人,
请放手.
好让别人有机会爱她.
如果你爱的人放弃了你,
请放开自己,
好让自己有机会爱别人.
有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的,
有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的.
人生中有许多种 .
但别让自己为一种伤害.
有些缘分是注定要失去的,
有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的,
爱一个人不一定要拥有,
但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱她.
男人哭了是因为他真的爱了.
女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了.

如果真诚是一种伤害,
我选择谎言;
如果谎言一种伤害,
我选择沉默;
如果沉默是一种伤害,
我选择离开.

如果失去是苦，
你怕不怕付出 ,
如果迷乱是苦，
你会不会选择结束,
如果追求是苦，
你会不会选择执迷不悟 ,
如果分离是苦，
你要向谁倾诉,
好多事情都是后来才看清楚,
好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦!

2009-10-24T19:08:00.002+08:00

24th October 2009, Saturday.
Day 1.
15 more days to 200.
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ever since i started talking to you since march. there is never one day that we will not talk to each other. there maybe times when i did stuff that really hurt you. you will still send me a message to say how upset you are. but today. i heard nothing from you. and from now till the day ends, i believe i will still hear nothing from you.
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i so have the urge to call you. the urge to message you. the urge to go look for you. but i know you talk to me now. you won't reply my message now.you won't want to see me now.
i respect your decision even though deep inside how i wish all these will be over.

been talking to bobby just now.
when i talk to him. tear just cant stop coming down.

i asked bobby whether does he miss you?
does he want to see you?
does he want to hear you calling his name?
does he want to play with you?

i asked bobby whether today i came across your mind.
whether you are like me looking at the phone waiting for your picture to appear, be it a call or a message.
whether you missed me just as much as i miss you.
most importantly, whether you want this to be over just as much as i want it to be.

i told bobby that i just cant stop thinking of you.
i just cant stop myself from crying when i think of you.
just cant.
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the cake that i bought for you during your birthday is still in the fridge.
the powerpoint that i did for you in still in the computer.
my bed is there but its empty.
the big shirt is there but you're not here to wear it.
the blue coke cup from mac is still there and no one is using it.
the ice in the freezer are full but no one to use it.

other than you,
no one else will eat the cake in the fridge.
no one else will see the powerpoint that i made for you.
no one else will sleep on my bed.
no one else will wear the big shirt.
no one else will drink from the blue cup.
no one else will use the ice to drink ice-kosong.
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i will still be waiting for you here without disturbing you.
i will give you all the time that you need.
no matter what is your decision.whether it the answer that i want.

take good care of yourself.
you must be happy. as long as you are happy is what that i want you to be.
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i miss you.
i love you.

till the day i hear from you.

2009-10-24T18:46:00.002+08:00

24th October 2009. Saturday.
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so many things had happened in my life since the last blog.
so many things had happened in the world from then till now.
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recently there are so many natural disasters around in the world. you name it they have it.
flood, earthquake.people around in the world are all dying.
is the world really coming to an end soon?
is Christ second coming nearing?
hope not.there are so many things i had yet to do.
things like:
-going to liverpool for a live soccer match
-get my own car and drive around
-see my brothers completing school, go into NS
-see bobby have his own puppies
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so many unhappy things happened in my life too. of course God arent so bad, i do have my happier times.

i did something so bad that i lost a great friend. a great elder brother.
i betrayed his trust for me. didnt care about how he felt and just said so many things.

i remember the things that you taught me since i was young. remembered the advice you gave me when i faced problems that i could not solve.
i'm sorry for the things i had done. sorry.
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i shall take this time to reflect on my life. im gonna finish my ns soon. i gonna think of what i want in life.

till then.
i will just be as good as dead.

2009-09-14T18:34:00.002+08:00

By saying lesser.
Having more respect for others.
Think whether what you said about others reflect upon yourself.

This will make the world more peaceful and less war will be needed.

DON YOU THINK SO??

2009-09-06T00:10:00.002+08:00

Been doing alot of stuff for the past half a year and so.
It is time that i pull my 'handbrake' and stop to look through and think what i had really done.
It is also time for me to do reflection on myself.
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It is time for me to fall back and let God carry me along.
Been trying to make things happen using my own strength. Its time i let Him do all the mighty things in my life and the lives around me.

Just want to let God take over everything.
My life.
My work.
My worries.
My emotions.
My attitude towards things.
My everything.
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2009-09-02T18:25:00.001+08:00

Look into my eyes - you will see
What you mean to me
Search your heart - search your soul
And when you find me there you'll search no more
Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for
You know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

Look into your heart - you will find
There's nothin' there to hide
Take me as I am - take my life
I would give it all I would sacrifice
Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for
I can't help it there's nothin' I want more
Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

There's no love - like your love
And no other - could give more love
There's nowhere - unless you're there
All the time - all the way

Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
I can't help it there's nothin' I want more
I would fight for you - I'd lie for you
Walk the wire for you - Ya I'd die for you

Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you
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this is my promise.. will i get to fulfill it?

2009-08-29T00:47:00.002+08:00

20years into my life.
20years as their son.

i have did nothing for them at all.
or should i say, i had did nothing that is good for them at all. bring them worries and troubles? ya.

thinking back for the past 20years.

even as a kid i got knock down by a car to worry them.
in primary school my form teacher can call every week to complain about me not doing my homework.
in secondary school all i do is play and waste my time away. in the end not getting into anything after my O's.
after secondary, did some stupid thing that need them to worry and spend 500 odd dollars for my mistake.
now?

just what is wrong with me?

i dont deserve this good parents that im having. they are just too good for me. i dont think that im fit to be their son. not fit to call them my dad and mum.
for they love me so much.
yet?

i choose not to answer their call.
i choose not to reply their messages.
i choose to avoid them.
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i'm really sorry for everything that i have done. you all love me so much. yet i'm just a useless son that does nothing for you all. does nothing at all for this family as the eldest son at home.

i'm sorry.

2009-08-15T22:33:00.003+08:00

i'm sorry that i kept quiet the whole time and didnt say anything that could be of any help.

i'm one who sucks at words, one who cant speak for good. ask me to talk cock, give people bird shit, i can score full marks for it. but when it comes to saying things that could be of any help. i sure will only get ZERO for it.

all i know is to let you cry on my shoulder, it stupid i know, as a boyfriend yet i could not help in anything.

i'm sorry..

2009-08-02T19:16:00.002+08:00

August 9 now seems nothing to me now.
It is just another day i guess.

should i be happy or should i be sad?

2009-07-21T21:42:00.003+08:00

looking in front..
looking behind..
looking right..
looking left..
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turning in front..
turning behind..
turning right..
turning left..
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walking in front..
walking behind..
walking right..
walking left..
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jumping in front..
jumping behind..
jumping right..
jumping left..
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it's still at the same spot isn't it??
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just want more to be done. how can they be saved?
just want more to be done. when will they be saved?
just want more to be done.
just want more to be done. for them and just for them.

2009-07-12T13:53:00.001+08:00

will 9 August just come quickly please?

2009-05-31T22:59:00.013+08:00

May came and went past real quick. Had a great month! :)
COC on the 19th was good. All the training was worthwhile and the food that night was really good. All of us took 'a few' box to make up alot of food that we had!

23rd was the most happy day in my life. this card was the niceeeest present that i had recieved for the whole year! many many more months to come my lovely!

Campbreak just started. Been blasted in everything and anything that we did! but we found 2 buddy in our toilet! So is camp really a safe place?

The best meal of the month goes to this simple yet special meal that i had on friday. It arent the most expensive food, it arent the food that most people will want to eat. But this simple maggie and banana was the best of the month. I don mind having this everyday. Even though it is just a simple maggie mee, i tasted not just the maggie, but the love!
SO HAPPI!

Exam came and went. Seems quite easy. But when the papers are easy, shall I be happy about it all shall i be worried about it?
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Must really learn how to cook. Will need to 'bai shi' de liao.
'亲爱的妈妈，我要学煮饭!'

BTT coming up on Friday. Still have not really study for it yet.
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要记得大师说的话！我以经帮你跟他讲的了。一切都会照你跟我说的一样！

2009-05-03T16:52:00.002+08:00

April came to and end real quick.
counting down still continuing. now left with 10 months of service. last year is really very difficult to go by!
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had been doing marching and marching for the past month and will be doing so for the next few months to come. so i will only get darker and darker which i don really mind because i like it! but really tiring and stuff. but its all for my COS!
suddenly the bass drum is becoming music to my ears. listening to it almost 4 times a week.
"boom boom boom 'check', boom boom boom 'check'"
"bom bom! bom bom! bom bom bom!"

instructor's life is surely much more different from an admins life. but at least I'm sure i did not make a wrong choice in deciding to become a instructor. life seems more interesting compare to just sitting down in the office and let the time goes by!
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nowadays news is all about the pig flu. so far Singapore is lucky to be no affected yet. but no matter how hard we try, somehow somewhere the flu will still hit us.everything also can have flu, bird flu, pig flu. wonder what is the next flu!
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Church was really good just now.
- Worship the Lord and all your troubles will seem so small!
Pastor was sharing about the book of Revelations and all that going to happen. At first there was a fear in me when watching the video, but just didn't know what was it about. By when he said something, i realise what fear i was having.
- Fear not for yourself, but fear for those who have yet to know Christ.

Agreed to what was said to the MAX. the fear was that will my family members go through all those that was shown? i do want to see them suffer those at all, i want them to be with me in Heaven. Where a mansion is already prepared for us! If they are not saved, i will not want to go heaven anymore. It won be of any joy to go there myself without them with me. It won be.
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Dear God,
Want to pray that my family members will soon get to know you. I know you have your plans for when and how they will come to know you. It will be the greatest joy i will ever experience when they tell me that they want to go to church. and when they tell me they want to accept You as their Lord and Saviour.
I don mind being a sacrifice so that they can come to know You. Use me in all means so they can know You Lord.
In Jesus name i pray
Amen

2009-04-25T23:34:00.003+08:00

LIVERPOOL IS COMING TO SINGAPORE ON THE 26TH OF JULY!
I WANT TO WATCH THEM PLAY AGAINST SINGAPORE!

Liverpool in your heart, and you'll never walk alone!

2009-04-23T23:26:00.001+08:00

I AM JUMPING WITH JOY!
I AM SO HAPPY.
SO HAPPY AM I.

words can never describe how happy i am!

2009-04-19T18:38:00.002+08:00

well. enrolment is finally over. sign of relief.
after some many weeks of disagreement among one another. it is finally over!

to see all our hard work for the past few weeks paid off today. really felt great!
Praises to all that made it happen!

even though has been rehearsing how to un-case of the colours. trooping of the colours, only up till today when we use the actual colours. and when the moment the colours was un-case and shown to all felt so happy deep inside. finally after 8 longs years, from a sec 1 boy where i always see us using our flag for enrolment and any other events till today, where i can have the honour to carry our company colours. God has been so good to us!

Dear all: IT IS NO LONGER A PIECE OF CLOTH!
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so happy that i can find this song. the moment when my friend sing it. all the words are so close to what i want to let you know. really want to ask you now!

2009-04-16T20:46:00.003+08:00

got leave for tomorrow so that i can rest my LEG at home. not going to go anywhere!

seems that my leg is getting more worst. now it can even get numb while standing up. 'powderful'? maybe. but can get to rest more? no!
been for 2 rehearsal for the past 2 days? had NDP yesterday. had to carry the mist gun and walk around the camp. really tiring. mark time on the spot was a killer with the condition of my leg! had COC just now. Lucky since we are quite ok in the sequence and stuff. only had 3 run in 2 hrs. but still by stamping my foot hurts!
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quite happy ever since i went back to church
begin to look at life at a different view.

finding more joy in life then sorrows!
- leg pain doesnt bring me sadness.
- been the flag-bearer is not a waste of time. but it is a honour! afterall this is what we are working for since the past 8 years! and we are finally getting it! to be the first boy as the company to be able to carry the colour. HONOUR!
- NDP and COC might be tough, but COS will be a good one!
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surviving the day! but it difficult! :(

2009-04-15T19:57:00.002+08:00

didnt went school today. my leg really hurts!

need to bear with it until after enrolment!

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this is really a nice song!

the name is 'I'm Yours"

You touched these tired eyes of mine

And map my face out line by line

And somehow growing old feels fine

Listen close for I'm not smart

You wrap your thoughts in works of art

And they're hanging on

the walls of my heart

I may not have the softest touch

i May not say the words as much

And though i may not look like much

I'm yours

And though my edges maybe rough

I never feel i'm quite enough

I may not seem like very much

But I'm yours

You healed these scars over time

Embraced my soul you loved my mind

You're the only angel in my life

The day news came my best friend died

My knees went weak and you saw me cry

Say I'm still the soldier in your eyes

I may not have the softest touch

I may not say the words as much

And though I may not look like much

I'm yours

And though my edges may be rough

I never feel I'm quite enough

It may not seem like very much

But I'm yours

I may not have the softest touch

I may not say the words as much

I know I don't fit in that much

But I'm yours

2009-04-15T00:11:00.002+08:00

to all,

i will be sick from tomorrow (15/04/2009) to friday (17/04/2009).
if you all know why...

very sick guy,
qicheng

2009-04-11T21:22:00.003+08:00

went for Good Friday service at Lighthouse yesterday. Had a good time. Seeing people accept Christ, got heal by God.

Its really good to be back 'Home' after so long. Really dont want to continue to live my life so meaninglessly! had been doing it for the past 1yr plus going to 2yrs soon. So its time for this lost soul to settle down and get life going!
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its also time for me to get my life going. have been doing things for myself and myself and still myself.[if you all know what i mean.]
so now its the time to say i will do it. not telling others i dunno. since i know. den i must do it. keep avoiding is not the way things will be solve, instead will pile up more and more till the day where it will be more difficult to be solve.

God gave me the chance to go back to him. Now its time i do something so that my parents can come to know Christ. know that the wooden thing at home is no God at all. Just a wooden thing that is taking up so much space at home. Just a wooden thing that waste money to buy joss stick for.
After they get to know Christ, my brothers are next in the line. To think eh. My family to go church together with me! Cant wait for it to happen. I know it will happen!!
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Christ is so Good. That He can change our lives for GOOD!

not don wan.even though the urge is always there.just that maybe the timing is still not right.
be good first.

2009-04-06T19:12:00.002+08:00

today was so different from work then the other days! i'm now an instructor instead of admin.
OC came and asked me early in the morning.
"Chong, You really want to be an instructor? Why?"
My reply is very simple. All i want is to be a SGT. Since this is my last year, being slacking and wasting my time for the past 1 year, why not give all out this year? Since no matter what i have to complete my 2 years, it won kill to be more 'kilat' and give all this year!
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enrolment is coming up next week! after that i will be 'gone' till October then i will be back again! will miss parade every Sat! will miss my boys!
but thinking bout this break. came at a good time. The heart of serving in 11 is not really there anymore. Maybe this break will let me think through above my BB passion.

saw something today when we were on the way to Ubi
'You are not here by chance"

I agree. Going back to BB. Is not by chance. i'm sure God let me go back for His purpose. Need to find it first before i go back and serve again! =]
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2009-04-01T00:18:00.002+08:00

well. it kind of late now? 1218 and i still not sleeping!
but just wanna post this and get the month of April and rest of the year, [even my life] on the right note before i get to bed!
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being through alot alot of things for the past 3 months. and tons of them after i stopped going to church. the last time i attended church every sunday was before CCW and LOC merge. Its like 1 and a half year ago!

So here is my Blog and Prayer to God.

Dear Papa in heaven,

Its been so so long that i have not being a good boy in going to church and doing what is the right things that i should be doing. I always find excuses for myself for not going to church. Excuses that are so stupid.!

There are so many things that are all troubling me and You know about it. But instead of coming to You, I choose to do things my ways and think that things can be solve without You. I'm really tired from all these 'i can do things without God. Qicheng can be all by himself without the help of God'.

There are so many desires in my heart and I know only through You all these will come true.
1. I want my family members to be saved.
2. I want to walk a life that has meaning.
3. I want to be who You want me to Be!
4. I want to learn how to put others first instead of Me First.
There are so many more. But all these are the main concern for me!

But all these arent gonna if i dont start going back to church.
Like what my dear sister said. 'Good Friday is coming'
Since im given the chance, i will take it eh.

Want to give up everything in my life to You.
Want to walk the rest of my life for You.
Want to be a good son to my parents.
Want to be a good brother to my brothers.
Want to be a good friend to all my friends out there.
Want to be a good officer that my Boys can look upon to.
Want to be a good Man.

I believe that all these can be done for Your love is so Powerful and Great. It won be a easy road down for me but i will work hard for it.

Thanks for no giving up on me!
I love You my dear Papa in Heaven!

In Papa name i ask and i Prayer
AMEN!
(Amen people are good people. Not bad people!!)

2009-03-24T23:08:00.003+08:00

今天要够力一点，全部用华文来写！
刚刚换blogskin。本来是要找香蕉的来放的，可是找来找去都不试和的喔，全部都几娘一下的！

最近老李不是要我们新加坡人讲华文跟用华文的对不对？我几听话的，马上什么都用华文的了！
真是几过应一下的!

我以经很久都没有去教堂的了，很坏蛋的喔！
可是很快的，来调整一下我的心情，然后我一定会乖乖去的！没有我一直期望的那一天是不可能来的！你们讲我讲的对不对？
我要先乖乖先阿爸看了才会给我我要的东西对不对？

enrolment要来的了，是又想他快点来的喔，可是也不要它来的。今年是flag-bearer的喔，然后又有这样大的event的喔，是很紧张一下de！
enrolment完了就要去NDP!

2009-02-28T17:34:00.002+08:00

well.. Mr Selamat has been given 'off' by Singapore for one year liao.
Can u believe it? Mas Selamat has gone missing for one year liao.
Gou Li o!
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i'm so impressing with my sec 1 boys. even though they are playful, but they are all such fast learner. most of them can sing the vesper, table grace! they can also recite the objective!
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will be going for my NDP starting from 11 april liao. So cant come for parade le. But after NDP is over, i will be reachon my goal le!!

2009-02-21T22:46:00.002+08:00

yo man.. looking at my own last post.. almost 3 months ago!! haha..
of course in 3 months tons and tons of things happened.. some are good.. some are bad.. some just wished that it didnt happened eh!
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december
i went AWOL/MIA for the whole month. they could get me. haha.
got cancel 3 days OFF for doing guard wrong on the 21st.
christmas was ok. stay at home and sleep.
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january
recruitment was great. got over 40 boys.
chinese new year was quite ok la. grandpa passed away. So could get red packet from most of my family members. so this year red packet money was quite little. in the end had to do some despo act. haha. go ppl to take red packet!!

still remember wad ah ma told me. After new year i need to be Guai Guai liao!
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febraury
so fast so good la.

uncle boon beng wife aunty linda passed away. was really shock was i heard the news. it is like she was jus gone all of the sudden. didnt knew she had any illness. but she just went like tat. [now i got this feeling whenever i see old people. is like they will just go anytime. not only old people. anyone can just go without you knowing. it really sad to see the people you love leave. nowadays whenever got recruits family called and say bout family members been admitted in hospital, fear will strike me!]

valentine day was really good. really enjoyed myself. all those money spent was worthwhile. even though really spent alot till im broke. but to see her so happy. all it worth it!
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will be going for NDP soon. so cant go for parade anymore. but will be good la. once it is over. it

will be august liao. will keep reminding myself its for my COS and the OFF!!
next month i will be turning 20 liao. man 20 leh. wa.. really old le. last time was still thinking when i will turn 18.. now.. 20 liao.. really old le.. papa will be 50 le..

need to ask of God for several things.
1. Go back to church. Cannot don go le..
2. Wanna learn how to spend more quality time with my parents.[im afraid of losing them!]
3. be a good boy! or should i say man?

2008-11-24T19:58:00.003+08:00

jus came back from grandpa funeral.
listen to what the adult said about him. realise that he had a very pitiful life. especially his last day when he was so afraid to sleep. because he scare he will sleep forever.
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life is really so short. always see other people funeral. didnt expect that i need to attend my own grandpa funeral. how i wish this will be the last time tat i need to attend my love ones funeral. but i know that it is very impossible. people will grow old and die one day. really saddening to see your love ones go...
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this is my first time attending a funeral. i know that as a christian. what they do. there might be some i cant do. or all i cant do. but i did everything yesterday. but i keep telling myself in my heart that i doing this is because if my grandpa. out of respect. not because i believe in those idols. need to go and know what i can do and what i cant do. but i will be praying for them. i really don want to lose another love one to the devil. i want to meet them in heaven when i leave this world one day.
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TODAY IS BOBBY'S BIRTHDAY! HIS IS ONE YEAR OLD LO.
happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to Bobby,
happy birthday to you!

2008-11-22T12:23:00.002+08:00

quite alot of things happened this week. so many of them.
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my grandfather just passed away yesterday night. in the whole of my 19 years. i have oly see him less den 10 times. maybe even less den 5. its the older generation issues that we all as grandchildren don get to see him. so my brothers don even really know that they have this grandfather. my second brother even once called him 'ah pek'. but my name 'Qi Cheng' is given by him to me. tat why i know that i still have a grandfather on earth.

to grandpa "i may not have live with you before. may not have spend time with you before. all i had is just see u a few times in my life. But thanks for giving me my name. Rest in peace."
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went down to took my timetable for school on monday. first thing i saw on the timetable was the word EXAM! i haven even start school already show me when my exams. not that encouraging! but i promised to do well. i will study and try my best to score well!
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when went down to work on wednesday. first thing i heard from the other admins was "Chong, how come you gana 4 extras?" i myself also dunno what i had done wrong. later den i knew it my guard duty list that is wrong. so he gave me 4 extras. they said i should go tell him those are serving their extras. but forget it ba. just serve that 4 extras lo. but what i know is I'M DAMN PISSED OFF BY HIM! so next time i will be a 'bastard' by asking him everything i do. he ask me why. my answer will be simple. 'i don want to for nothing get extras duty again. so asking you what to do will be the best choice. if wrong againg den it is not fault anymore.'

so i thought that camp was the only happening thing until dar told me something. SHE WENT TO TAKE THEORY EXAM FOR DRIVING WITHOUT ME! I WAS STILL SILLY WAITING FOR HER BUT SHE WENT TO TAKE IT HERSELF. but now you have to take it with me le. hahahaha.
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went down with my youngest brother to take his PSLE results. well he didnt score quite well but as least was better den what we expected. so all he need to do is to study harder in Sec 1 and try to jump to express stream in Sec 2. and everyone was asking him which school he want to go. but can see that his mind is already set to one school. CHRIST CHURCH SECONDARY SCHOOL. haha. dad was trying to talk to him bout other school. but he seems to be more interested in CHR more den any other school. but i suggested to him to go and try Chung Cheng High in yishun. don go CHR better. no choice den go CHR.
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audit yesterday. found out that on thurs when i not in camp. one of the instructors quarrel with e old man because of dragon boat. sometimes wondering what is wrong with him. why he like to force people to do things that they don like to do. don he think that he is abusing his power? unless you send people who have extras to go. we can find it reasonable. but if not why force people to go? we need our weekends! why not you go? you need your weekends then we don need ours?

the higher the ranks. the lesser brain they have!

2008-11-11T22:08:00.002+08:00

well. really want to thanks God for everything.

At first was still quite worried that my bank loan cant be approved in time and wont get to study on 1st December.

but today my 'yi zhang' said that he will pay the amount for me. all i need is to pay he back with no interest. he only requested is that i need to i must get my diploma.

I want to say Thanks to him. but i dunno how to say it. so thinking during christmas, send him a card to thanks him for it!
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well. tmr when go back. army life will be back to normal. because our 'hoilday' is over. encik is back and well we cannot slack like we use to be le!

watched 007 just now. not bad. quite nice..
waiting for madagascar to come out! want to watch it!

i like to MOVE IT!

2008-11-08T16:20:00.002+08:00

this week was really our holiday week!
encik was not around. so we were slacking most of the time. but we got do our work la. all that are needed to be done are done den we will slack and relax.
hoilday is usually fast gone. wednesday he will be back. oly left 2 more day of holiday and when he is back! can expect tons n tons of scolding to come our way!
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managed to find my 'yi zang' as the guarantor for my bank loan. but too late le. i just realised that he didnt sign the form! so cant get it done by next week le. so i tink i can oly start going school at Feb ba. but its good also la. need some time to adjust back to schooling life. i had not studied since 2006!
but i promise God. dad, mum, sharon n everyone who cares. i will work hard and get this diploma!
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in the morning when i was still in my dreams sister msged me.
'brother combined recruitment on anot?'
combine can. sure not problem de ma. but den when she said 'Mmm. ok k maybe your committee should meet capt aileem first then we can see how to work together.'
i got no committee! so far all the planning i done is rough idea leh. lit wen they all haven come back yet! haha. stress le!! but can wan. will work on it. with God leading the way.
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so far today i have done nothing at all. but den sat ma. let me relax abit.
haha.

ORD OH!

2008-11-03T22:29:00.003+08:00

Today when on my way to camp. Was kind of looking forward to it. Because...

I FROM THIS

BECOME

THIS!

Finally after 6 months since i POP. I am LCP Chong. Not PTE lo!!

Just Blog just to say this. WEE!! SWEE LA!!

HUAT AR!!

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2008-11-02T18:57:00.002+08:00

I am offically LCP Chong. No longer PTE!
Reaching my 8 months mark soon. 1 year and 4 month of NS more.
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Changed my skins.
At first didnt know what skins i wanted. Came across this skin. Not Bad. So will sitck with this till someone somewhere tell me its time to change skin.
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Church today was ok.
Sermon given was not really clear. I didnt get what pastor was really trying to share. But somehow still got take down some notes.

1. Not matter where God have put you in. Serve it with all your heart willing. If you think that your attitude is poor. Have a change of attitude!

2. No matter what happen, you need to stand by your faith. Do not because of fear and let you faith down.

3. Faith is not always rewarded with sucess and results that you want.

[Those who save your life will lose it but those who lost your life for Jesus will be saved]
[God called us to be faithful]
[Live up to our faith]

This was all i recorded down today!
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Monday is coming again. Yet again work for the weekdays.
No choice. Just serve this 2 years!

2008-10-26T17:34:00.002+08:00

today is sun liao. still got one more extra rest day to go before working again.
only served the country for 7 months and 15 days and i'm really sian about it liao. still got 1 year and 5 months to go man. ARHHH!
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yesterday dinner was ok. the food was ok la. nothing much happen. just that i 'attacked' 3 times. first was by the sotong. den the drink. and almost by the veg.

the old times are gonna come back. all can sense it. we must continue to work on it. sure can one. nothing is impossible. is whether ur up to the challenge.
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went to church today.
sermon was about 'Bringing Back the Glory'.
the 5 points that i learnt was

1. God demands the highest praise!

2. Give with all your heart.

3. Put God above all.

4. 听话!

5. Have Faith and Expectation.

most importantly i felt God said something to me.

'one do not go to church becasue someone ask you to go. one do not go to church because of who or what is in the church. one should only go to church with one purpose in mind. TO WORHSIP GOD. TO PRAISE GOD. TO LISTEN TO HIS WORD.'

so what if the church have someone who is not on good term with in it. you do not because of that are not go church!

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2008-10-01T10:44:00.002+08:00

today is 1 October 2008.
today is children day and also hari raya.
3 more month to go before year 2008 come to an end.
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read the news. yet another NSF died during training. wonder how the family members feel.. sending their sons to serve the country. yet the result is death for the son. you know how much they will pay you if you die in NS? for army and police may be different. for CD is only a small sum of 10000. for all the love and care for the past 20 years. all it is worth is only a small sum of 10000.don we NSF worth more?
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yesterday during supper we got so much plan for year 2011. might sound like still got 2 years away. but we need to start planning soon. if we want a grand year. we need to plan real soon.

now also need to plan for recruitment and also recruit training camp.
recruitment need lit wen they all to finish o's first. den ask them come and help me plan.
for RTC also.it a team thing. not one person de.
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went to sign up for my studies le.
class will start on 1 december.
but now i'm having a big problem.!

want to apply for bank loan for my studies. as my annual income do not meet $12000.i will need a guarantor before i can apply for the loan. dad had agree to be my guarantor. his income is above $12000/month.but there is this section that is [My Guarantor's Work Details].my dad work as a driver.but he do not have a fix company.so he said we might not be able to get the loan.if we cant get it.how am i gonna study?
last day to hand in the money is 31st of this month.just 30 days away.

how?

2008-09-20T17:33:00.002+08:00

wanna change my blog skin. but cant find one that i like de. will continue to find one. but for now, i will just with this one.
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one week into my admin work in army.so far so good. but it can get really bored when all things that needed to be done are all done. we will just die die have to find something to do. or can say when OC or encik come in, we need to "work". so now den i truly understand why we are to always take out time in doing our things. so we will be occupied for the whole period from 8-5.

did you guys watch the movie 'just follow law'? in my camp. the situation is just about the same as what is in the camp. those who have 'seafood' on their shoulder will be arrowing one another with e-mail after e-mail. is like e show lo. i see le also laugh. and when they need to cover the "backside". we are the one that in the end the arrow will end up with.
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i have decided to go and study le. will be taking up private dip in sports management.
will cost me S$4700. so earliest i think will start not this year Nov then will start in Feb next year. come out le i will still go further study till i get a degree ba. because in Singapore. if you don study. you cannot find a good job.
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went for officer council today.
I HAVE DECIDED TO GO BACK TO BB.
so i think will go back and help out Melvin first ba. wait till end of end when Danny Sir decide to take up next year platoon den i will go understudy with him before 2010 or 2011 when me. ALF, Sam and WR come out and take a platoon ourselves.

11TH is where we grew up. so Eugene Sir, we will help you fulfill your dream of becoming the company in Woodlands to spread out and multiply!
and i wanna fight and take up enrolment service in 2011. still got 2 years to go. but ideas are all coming in now. all i know is i want to make a SWEE SWEE n GRAND GRAND one. but still much planning must be done. go understudy first.:)

2008-09-11T20:00:00.002+08:00

today i want to blog no matter what. these few week i keep on want to blog, but is either i lazy or dunno what to write. so today i no matter what must blog!
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i finally don need to go checkpoint to check cars le. when i cant really remember but it bout 1 week ago la. when it was ending it was like my second pop. was really happy and looking forward to it. haha. got to have 4 days off.

i got posted back to my company line. so thought i will become instructor, but instead, i got into admin. so these 3 days was doing admin, but still learning. quite relaz.

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now i can go back for bb le.

2008-08-02T00:37:00.002+08:00

very very long since i last log on to blog.
been 4 weeks since i blogged and these 4 weeks happened so many things.
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but something i dearly missed is my platoon 'pop'. didnt have the chance to be there to celebrate the specical event for them. see them since they were sec 2. from most LCP to today all SGT and above. from wearing shorts to today, 2 months plus away from their big exam.
[you guys are the first platoon that i took. from you guys i learnt alot. hoping to see you all coming back as primers next year!!]
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they say we will be standing down from this operations soon. but the moment they said the word 'hopefully'. we knew the chances are quite low. but if can the fastest it happen the better it is. i can confirm my studies plan. in singapore no cert is a very very dangerous position to be in. and i have not been to parade for so long le. heard here and there bout some of the changes. but wanna go back and see see.
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that all le ba. will blog again.
btw.
caught money not enough just now. not really up to what i expected from the first money not enough.

2008-07-03T22:43:00.003+08:00

went to watch hancock today. quite a nice show. got this funny part that i like is when he found out that the girl was also like him. he took the fork to poke her and the thing to whack her.

and i came out with this sentence. [i am bigcock,better than hancock].

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oh ya.. i show you all something.

this is the mark i got wheni got bitten by dar dar!

2008-06-27T19:36:00.004+08:00

went to bugis just now and wanted to go over to ah chew and have MSP. but you know what i see?

saying that ["Ah Chew Desserts" will be undergoing renovation for shop expansion. Any inconvenience is greatly regretted.]
wanted to had MSP de. no chance. need to wait till next time again eh.

2008-06-26T22:11:00.002+08:00

quite bothered by the word 'money'.
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feel stress about it. not only just normal stress. but is totally stress about it. getting into my head. living in singapore is both a good thing and bad thing. living standard in singapore is high. our money value is high. which is good. but the cost for living in singapore is really too high le. everything we do need money. even now when i'm blogging. also need money. some more now everything is increasing.
thought i won need to worry bout money issue. but i'm so wrong. really walking till the dead end le. need to find way out now!
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really need to go look for a part-time job. save more le. cannot buy what i want le. now only can buy what i need le. only can spend on what is really needed le. there are so many things i wanna do. and all need money. wanna go study. need money. wanna learn how to drive. need money. everything is money and money. even now me and sharon will quarrel over the issue on MONEY.
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fighting with money.

2008-06-23T23:31:00.002+08:00

Dear Dear Love Dar Dar Very Very Much!!
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Today post will be very short. know something? I am growing fatter and fatter. Die le la. looking at my stomach now. it is getting bigger and bigger. by the time i finish this ops whitelight, i also dunno how much i will grow le. work this everyday eat and eat only. no exercise or what-so-ever. so how to keep fit? i also lazy to go and do exercise and stuff.

let me show you how to count by the time i end this ops.

total intake of food-total number of exercise=weight gained.
[3 meals a day]-[0 numbers of exercise]=[100% gain of weight]

so if i really continue like that. really will get into something BIG!
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got to exercise!

2008-06-21T21:02:00.002+08:00

got a good news just now when we were having lunch. the shop called us and those us that the information we had given them and everything. they manage to found out our invoice number and we will be able to collect back our camera. but still we'll have to wait one month before we can go and collect the camera. they say they will keep a look out for our invoice number and if anyone will to take the receipt and try to claim the camera, they will stop the person and inform us. this might also can help us find my wallet back. my beautiful wallet.
but still my 11b is what is more important though.
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watch 'get smart' just now. quite a funny show. haha. had our laugh!
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got to book in later le. only can come back on monday night. work this got its pros and cons. the good thing is we will get 100 extra allowance. work for 4 days and off 2 days. well actually its only 1 3/4 days. but the time we finish our night shift will be next morning and by the time we reach home will be like 10 plus le. so not really 2 days off. the bad thing is our life is quite being taken away. when we work others rest. when we rest others will work. for example others usually off on sat and sun. mine is not like that. so sometimes cant really go out at all. haha. well this is ns. cant do much but to serve 2 years and get it over with!
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my com is still at the computer shop at vista point. still haven go and collect yet. no money to collect. haha. 1 month only get 360 and spent everything last week in pc show. bought a new motherboard. haha. so was quite broke now! and to add on it. i lost my wallet. my beautiful wallet!

2008-06-20T19:38:00.002+08:00

many things happened in a short period of time today. and thinking back now. i am very very ashamed of myself.
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sadly.. i lost my wallet. inside contain so many important things and i lost in. my 11b, my ez-link card, my ocbc debit card, my hometeam ns membership card and most importantly. the very important piece of paper i could ever have in my wallet. that time during the pc show. me and sharon bought a camera at the show. the camera was out of stock and have to pre-order, so we paid the full amount and got the receipt to collect the camera at sim lim square. we called yesterday and they say can collect today. but i lost my wallet and the receipt. so we called the store to ask them to see if we can in any way collect the camera. and starting we was serve by this person whose attitude made things worst. already here i am everything important document i have is gone. he over there is making life even more difficult for us. so both got even more pissed and i talked the the manager the way i shouldnt. i ask him to use his brain to think. is like he can just say since i don have the receipt. he can don recognise and don give me the camera. so anger got the better and i say those word. felt really bad now. luckily sharon called again just now and they are willing to help. really hope we can get the guy who serve us to come down and recognise us and we can get the camera. know that sharon like the camera alot. please do help us pray.

the second thing i wanna mention is that it my own fault to lose my wallet. who ask me not to take care of my own things. already 19 le and still dunno how to take care of my own things? and i got angry with sharon just because i lost the wallet MYSELF! to lose the receipt she is also worried bout it. but instead of making things better i made it worst. dar.i really sorry.should not get angry at you.you did not make my wallet gone missing.it myself who lost it.not you.i got no rights to be angry with you.really very sorry.

luckily for me. my debit card is already settled. they will be sending me a new one without having to pay any replacement fee. as for my 11b still dunno how i am suppose to go around doing it. only can know tomorrow night when we book in. i think will need a replacement fee of $40 if i'm not wrong. as for my hometeam ns membership card. will need to go down to replace it at $5. that one not in a rush. so still can wake. got to ask encik bout my ez-link also. if cant replace can use adult de. after all the pricing is still the same. just that cant get concession price only. as for my wallet. really love it. haha. got no choice but to replace one.
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just now the moment i opened the bible i show this verse.
-Lamentations 3:25-26, The Lord is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him; it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord.
reading this i remember something in the morning. sharon was saying let pray that my wallet will be found. and instead of agreeing with what she said. the thinking i had in mind was 'like as if he will help. i not only doubt in God. i even question he power to do the impossible" see how bad am i? to doubt God. someone who loves me so much. died for me on the cross. hai.
so after that i read Proverbs and got 2 verse about controlling my temper.
-Proverbs 29:11, A fool gives full vent to his anger but a wise man keeps himself under control.
-Proverbs 29:22, An angry man stirs up dissension and a hot-tempered one commits many sins.
both i also agree alot because i gave full vent of my anger to 2 person who didnt do anything wrong. and i'm a FOOL! and because of my hot-temperness. i commited so many sins in one day! the most 'sinful' sin is to doubt God.

I'm sorry God. Please forgive me for my foolishness.
I'm sorry dar. For blowing up at you when you did not do anything wrong.
I'm sorry to the manager of the store. you offered to help but instead of talking to you nicely i said things i shouldnt. will say it to you personally when we go down to the the camera.

2008-06-02T22:07:00.002+08:00

so much things to say. but sure some will forget later.
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last monday got our posting for the rest of our ns life. i got into instructor. quite expected it to come. know my chances for getting into medic and other vocations is very low because encik had already submitted our name even before we went for any interview!

by right now i should be working as a instructor for bravo company. but i was chosen for [ops white light]. we are the few 'lucky ones' to be chosen for this ops. so we will be either going to woodlands or tuas checkpoint. to check the cars, bus and cargo for our mister Mas Selamat or in short we will call him 'msk'.
i heard all the old bird say on the day of briefing. 'good luck to you if you go to woodlands checkpoint' and lucky me. i got into tuas checkpoint. the flow of cars there are not even half of woodlands. only bus will be quite a number during the peak hours.

the working hours are quite relax, or i can say it will make myself thinking 'am i serving ns?'
we will work 2 days, follow by 2 nights and 2 off. one shift is 12 hours. so it either from 0800-2000 or from 2000-0800. but during these 12 hours, 6 hours will be for working and the rest is for us to rest and sleep. haha.

so am i really serving ns?
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know something? i am really disgrace to be a singaporean. and i am really very serious. it is a disgrace to say that i am a singaporean.

there is some standard on how we need to check the cars. we will need to check the spare type compartment and ask all those who are above the age of 15 to step out of their car and go for thumbprint scan. these standard are not set by me, and it is a must for me to follow.

so now i give you the reason why i am so unwilling to call myself a singaporean.

when you ask a malaysian car to do all of the above, they will do it without any questions. even if they ask, they will be asking it like can they know why they will need to be doing this. for a singapore car. they will give you a face like it my fault to ask them to come down for the check and scan. and some will scold you for what you are doing.
they will never give a thought that do i want to do this? i also know it a waste of time. doing all this is the middle of the night where i can be having my sleep? i never ask him to run away from the detention cell. i never ask the government to set up all these. how come a malaysian can be so understanding while a singaporean cant? because we singaporean thinks that we are of higher class then them our time is precious while others is not.
so singaporean are really disgracing the country and the rest of the singaporean!
and one more thing. all those that come down to make noise. 95% of them are CHINESE! it is like even more disgrace!

so pissed with singaporean that i dunno what to blog le.

2008-05-24T21:49:00.001+08:00

quite long never blog le.. so now come and blog. haha..

quite a list of things to say. but sure will miss out somethings somewhere de. so just write down what i can remember!
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first thing first. i finally POP lo. haha. after 2 month plus of training. i'm finally a private now.recruit no more! thursday we went for a 10km road march around the cemetery. after that went into the MPH for our parade. this year was quite a simple one because they need to plan for the ops northlight[the event that happened yesterday].after had a good lunch and went on to do our last area cleaning and got to book out at around 4.

went for blood donation this tuesday.the feeling at first was like quite scare.because lots of them say it hurts alot.but its ok la.they got put the medicine for numb de.so got no feeling at all when they put the needle in. last time always have the thinking of blood donation is a waste of time. now is totally different le. the next blood donation they have. i will go and donate again. it really nice to know that for that 500ml that i donate.can save up to 3 lives. so why not? and thank God that i can donate. but i got G6PD and one more which i dunno how to spell. in chinese its call 'ping xue'.

on tuesday i also got our chemical agent.it was a fun experience.to be wearing the suit and going into the gas chamber to get a feel of how a chemical is like. and went to mandai training village again on wednesday for our final ex. i was chosen as the DO. and i got to admit. i didnt focus on my seach and rescue team. resulting in? 4 dead! haha. lucky it just a test. :)
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just came back from the food fair at expo. to be frank. i first thought that a 'food fair' will only have food. but it end up have lots of other funny stuff. and it don really get what i was hoping for. went there will a feeling that i gonna have lots of food and stuff. but in the end. didnt really have much. quite disappointed. but well. haha. hope next year will be better.

wanted to go for hillsongs just now de. but by the time my platoon mate come. already 4 le. and by the time we walk finish the food fair. the concert gonna start le. so like we also won get a good place. so end uo decided not to go le. still have lots of chance. no worries.
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was arguing with justin[my platoon mate] about liverpool and man u. haha. see. i support liverpool and he support man u. so today we was shooting one another about man u and liverpool. we went for the adidas sale at expo. i told him and wanna buy him a liverpool shirt. haha. dar was there shooting liverpool also.

See this logo? it is not just another logo to those who support liverpool. it is a family crest to all of us!

2008-05-16T22:03:00.002+08:00

this week big news was the earthquake in china that was of 7.9 magnitude. first thing that came to my mind was my brother. he went to china with school on sunday. at first when i read the newspaper it was at Sichuan. and didnt see the word Shang Dong on it. so assume that he was save. when yesterday heard from my friend that lots of people had die. was so worried for him. so gave mum a call. and Praise God. he is not affected by the quake. thanks all who prayed for him. wonder whether did he felt the trembles. haha.
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this week was quite relax or can say is very relax. on mon we have a chance to put on the chemical agent suit. it was so hot. and we put on the mask. we were told to do exercise with it. the feeling of when you need air can very little is coming. so difficult to hang on.but still got over with it.
tues got to retake my IPPT. they say those who fail 2 stations and above must retake the whole ippt. so i thought i will need to retake everything. but on tues they told me i only need to take my pull-up and SBJ which i passed both. but know what they told me today? because the admin made a mistake. they will consider me as failing my ippt. is like man. it so not fair! but no choice also lo.
wed we went to mandai training camp. the place dunno used to be what. but in the end. it was raining the whole day so we was sleeping there the whole day! had my SOC test yesterday and i think i manage to pass it ba. our company lost in footdrill com today. so can see in OC face. how pissed he is. but who cares??
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pop o! that what all will be shouting on thursday. following monday will be knowing our posting. but mine is 99% confirm as instructor le ba. encik die die wan me to be. so if really got into it den i will go on study. come ord can straight away work le. save time!

not really in the mood to blog rite now.

2008-05-11T16:58:00.005+08:00

today is mother's day. wrote a letter for my mum. got her dark chocolate which is low in sugar and gave her $80 to use. dunno can give her what le. but she wrote me a msg i saw le feel like crying. i love you alot o.

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went to 300 plus just now and bought a psp. lost the slim one the other time. so bought a second hand one that cost 180. but we downgraded from psp slim to psp. look at the picture. wanted to put it up but do not look good. soory dar. not gonna put eh. but got a very nice pic of me and bobby though.

how does me and bobby look together? he is so cute!

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this week will be the last training week and after that we will be preparing for our POPing le. finally after 11 weeks inside. we are over with our recruit life. no more ****ing here and there le.

encik told me he want me to be instructor. told he wanted to be medic, but he say no. shouldnt had say i want to be a instructor in the first place. but at least i can consider to go and study. since instructor sure 8-5 everyday. don need to think so much le. if really den will ask him to let me go and study.

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this week will have our CA and also our final act. where we will be have a real life S-Base training down at MTV. mandai training village. after that we will also have our OC night and also our footdrill com. once it over we will have a long weekend. haha.

booking in at 1945!

2008-05-03T19:37:00.002+08:00

date now read 3rd May 2008.
my POPing date. 22nd May 2008.
22-3-[total of 5 days of sat and sun]-[19 will be a public holiday]-[for the last week will be road marching and stuff]= 10.

so it only 10 days more before i finish my BRT. the day we have been waiting for and praying for is finally here. after 10 more days of half-right and **** you here and there. we will be from RECRUIT to PRIVATE. soon. soon.
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had a good time catching up with them yesterday during dinner. realise that SAF is so much more different from SCDF. they get to play with guns we dont. they have payphones in camp. we only have handphones. and they are so into singing songs. but we dont. haha. so many different. but at least i'm still happy that i am in SCDF instead of SAF. but is SPF still the better choice?

does NS really change people? that the question i have been thinking the whole day. when we are inside. we are so exposed to words like **** you, k*n and many more. so after 5 days of being 'greet' with these words. when we come out. does it naturally come out of our mouth too? yesterday was the first time since i knew Alf from sec 1 that he scolded k*n. so does NS teach us bad things? one can only wonder!
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went to catch Iron Man just now. the building of the suit is really fun. especially when he is testing the flying thing. haha.
i like the last words that he said. 'I am Iron Man'!
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10 more days of training. plus my test for the rescue, IPPT and SOC. pray that i can pass of can pass out!

JOIN THE COUNTDOWN. 10 days starting from mon.
ARE YOU READY?

2008-05-01T11:16:00.002+08:00

a long waited holiday have finally come. last one we had was during good friday. but this holiday arent a really good one either.
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later will need to book in at 1945. so bored lo. looking at tomorrow programme. footdrill in the morning. follow by a lesson. lunch. area cleaning.talk by guest speaker.standby bed & finally go home. so bored.
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one of my friend got himself into DB which i felt not worth it. really felt it for him. if he would have listen to us to keep down his temper. he would not have go in but instead the guy he punched. he's now inside detention cell. will be charged tomorrow. hope he will be fine!
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counting down to my POP week is even more nearer! 3 more weeks to POP!
now i also dunno where i will be posted into. i only know is either being a instructor which is not good! because i will need to be scolding them all the time! or will i be a medic?? i went for the medic interview. being a medic seems very interesting! let God decide where he will want me to go. because he know best!

2008-04-27T14:06:00.003+08:00

wonder how my brother look without hair! haha. hope to get to see on next week when we will all have HOLIDAY!
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still coughing. already more then a week. but till now i still cannot finish coughing.
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looking forward to book out on wed!

2008-04-21T10:46:00.002+08:00

the most hot issue now.

BOSS AND FIRST LADY.

wr still not out yet. still haven get to share the good news that the boss and his first lady have from what we want it to happen to it had happened.
after all the talking with the first lady. telling her that she's in love with our boss. giving them chances to spend time alone together. our efforts paid off! and you know something? our boss didnt even sense a thing!

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yesterday went back camp. suppose to be doing guard duty. but i lost my voice and was having a big headache. so was send back home to see doctor. my mc ends todays. going back camp later. it will be very very fast one. and time inside will be very slow!

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me and sharon is ok already!
breaking up will not be what me and her wants! we gone through so many events in our life together that no one can ever compare with us. i not sure if i can hold on without. i am so depended on her. everything i need her to remind me. everything need her to take care for me. that why the phase that people always like to use is true. "behind every man, there is a women".
if i dont have her. i would have collaspe a long time ago.

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so later going in le. coming out on friday!

2008-04-19T21:30:00.001+08:00

19.04.2008 Saturday

a day that will be goin down qi cheng history.

coughing for me got even more bad. cant stop coughing. eat medicine. but like no help one. maybe its because i anyhow eat things. eat sweet. drink cold. eat ice-cream. blame who? blame myself!
tomorrow will need to go down to camp at 0730 hours. the main guard got mc. so i need to replace. so it means there go my weekend. now already 2130. 10 more hours. so fast.
lastly. quarrel today. ending might be very bad.

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had a talk to valerie. realise that she and his boyfriend also facing what i'm facing. realise that we guys cannot keep on asking you girls to be understanding. but did we guys ever be understanding? we only know to ask you all be. but we once be understanding.

why will you all be angry when we do not spend time with you all? because for 5 days a week. you cant see us. and you miss us so much. all you all want is more care from us. more time from us. but it always seem that friends are much more important. everything seems much more important then you. all you want is very very simple. that we can give you a good hug. show you that we care. let you know that you are important to us. but even when it is so simple. we cant do it. you think for us in everyway. but we only think for ourselves and not you. we take you for granted. we are at fault for all the thing that is happening. we use NS as an excuse. we are really jerks! we always say we will change. but in the end we also never.

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had this thinking just now. why God give me happiness for a week and allow me to be sadden another. but i ask myself another question. why is this happening? read the bible in Matthew 14:31 it say. "Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. 'You of little faith,' he said, 'why did you doubt?'" also in John 14:1. "Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me." sometimes i do doubt whether he really loves me. how come he can let me be so happy today and so sad tomorrow? but this shows i should not doubt him. really should not.

just now when the guy called me to ask me replace him. i lost my cool and want to scold him. but God used my mum to cool me down. she not a christian. but God used her to cool me down. and in the bible in Matthew 5:46. "If you love those who love you, what reward will you get?" and also 5:44. "But i tell you: Love your enemies and pray for those wh0 persecute you." So instead of cursing and swearing at him. I just go down a do the duty. It won kill also.

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that is all. got nothing much to say already. still coughing. still very sad. but at least got something to be happy for. my boss and his "first lady". must be loving and funny. wr will be laughing all the way when he's out.

God bless all who love Him!

2008-04-19T00:14:00.002+08:00

well this week was quite tough to go by. have lots of lesson to go to. injured my lower back during a lesson on tues. hope it will be fine. and nothing will happen.

learn things that some was learned during BB times. like first aid stuff. CPR. all learn before one.

i was selected for footdrill com. will be burning away alot of my free time. training will start form 1930 to about 2100 every night. but if we can be the champ again this year. all these training will be worst it!!

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felt that God is telling me something this whole week.

Matthew 7 was the book where i found what God want to tell me the whole week.

-" Do not judge, or you too will be judged. For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and the measure you use, it will be measured to you."

this is the main thing God is telling me for the whole week. i will like look at others with the thinking that they are "ah bang" and like look down on them and do not want to get along with them. but the 3 words "DO NOT JUDGE" keep on coming into my mind.

when i continue reading the bible. read this 2 things also..

-" Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks recieves; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened."

-" Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destrcution, and many enter through it. Butsmall is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it."

this 2 is like very idiot-proof de. read also will understand.

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just now have about 5 mins talk with wr. felt that i'm so blessed to be in SCDF and not SAF! next week he book out is around 10. so will reach home around midnight. so poor thing.

looking forward to see him next sat. hopefully.

but then i will left 4 week till i POP. still counting down. 5 weeks=25 days.

2008-04-13T17:30:00.002+08:00

went to lighthouse in the morning for their youth service. the service is still not bad. i like it alot. but still not sure whether will remain in this church not. want to settle down fast and get back on track with God.

Because only in God and with God can i find peace and joy.

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This whole month is alot more better then the first 3 months of the year.

Finally start to go to church and felt so much more closer with God. can feel God more and life for me is starting to get better also. Quarreling with Sharon have stopped. Now both of us seems to be more happy. Praise God!

Now can keep having the feeling that God is with me and i'm not alone. Sorry satan. God is still whom i belong to.

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Today do not need to book in! Tmr morning need then book in at 0715.

2008-04-12T13:04:00.002+08:00

went for planetshakers yesterday. it was ok.. sang my heart out for God.
so happy that i'm a christian. because when i sing i know i'm singing to a living God. not to idol or wooden thingy and stuff. feel God so much yesterday!!

mum and dad and bro and all. pray God will touch you guys and we will be singing together to Him one day. it will be a great joy to see you guys going to church and singing out to A LIVING GOD! AMEN!!

got a scare out of myself in the morning when i wanna withdraw 20 bucks to buy so stuff at SPC. my bank balance show only 14 bucks when i remember i got 620 odd bucks inside. call bank in the morning and whew! just maintainance!!

counting down. 6 weeks more!

2008-04-06T17:33:00.001+08:00

can i don go army?
every book out seems so far away when i am inside. but every book in is so fast when i am outside!
i wanna go AWOL!

but i do not have a choice. :(

2008-04-05T23:49:00.002+08:00

today went to parade. my last till i finish my brt. wore officers polo-tee. felt quite weird.
we continue our april fool joke with jie jie. and she totally believe it. when she meet us again in the evening. she was like "your hand ok already?"

been in ns for 4 weeks now. alot of things happened this four weeks. decided that i will take a break from BB. send all the officers and also teacher-in-charge a e-mail today.

Dear Officers, Teachers-in-charge and Brothers.
I have been in army for 4 weeks. Been through quite alot of changes in my life.Felt that i rather far away from my family, my girlfriend and also God. Sometime feel like i'm always quarrel with my family and girlfriend because i don get to spend time with them. So i decided to take a break from BB. not long. for only about 1 month plus only. will be back to my family during mid May or late May. Once i get my vocation, when it is 8-5 everyday for me, i will be back serving in BB. Need your guys' prayer for the strength i need during these 7 weeks of BRT. the faith to trust in Him, also not to fall in temptations of becoming like one of them.For my vocation, i hope i can get into either company instructor, PTI, or medic. All these can be used for teaching the boys in the future! Lasty like to thanks all the officers for all the guidance in everything that i have. Thanks alot.Sorry if i have let you all down in any place. Do tell me, so i can learn and change to be better.
Love all!
Qi Cheng

Dar. this is what i am gonna do. i will not be thinking about BB. will not be just be with you but my heart is somewhere else. i will spend time with you. also with God.

so fast already sun le. going in later at 1945 again. again 1 week inside.

2008-03-30T17:39:00.002+08:00

enrolment service is finally over. after all the hard work for the past few weeks, this year enrolment was a good one too.

the photo story was really very good. so nice!

now having flu. can i don book in later?

booking in at 1945.

btw, i don want to hold your hand!

2008-03-29T00:15:00.002+08:00

today got a half day break. so got to book out at 1300 hours. because my company help out in the props party. so got to book out early. not bad!

this whole week was doing the rehersal, didnt get to train for ippt. next week is the last week before i finish my ptp liao. so fast i am inside ns for 3 weeks le. really want to pass my ippt. so the 5th week i can everyday book out 8-5. really want to pass my ippt!

i find the way the people in ns is really very funny. remember the first day got this guy who is the OO. he come in and told us that is you have any stress or could not cope with anything. he also gave us a card with the number to call. so one of my friend who is very stress about money problem, called the number. the next day this OO came to ask him what is his problem. all of us thought this number can help us to relief stress. but it won. it only will bring yourself more trouble. really very funny.

3 weeks into army. alot of things happened. to all whom i might have hurt. i'm sorry for all the hurt i have brought to you.

dar. i am really sorry for breaking your heart. i should not have done all those things to hurt you. i really will not do it again de.after the talk we had earlier. i really broke your heart. sometimes i really a jerk right. i really will change for you de. i really really will.

read the book of James in camp yesterday. the first chapter was talking about perseverance. and it is the resting of our faith. and once again bringing my family to Christ come into my mind again. i am like so despo for grandma to get to know God as soon as possible. because i do not know how long can she live. i really do not want her not to be in heaven with us.

God please have your way in my family.
Amen.

2008-03-23T17:18:00.002+08:00

yesterday had rehersal for the GOH. quite disappointed with the boys. all the sec 3 boys. only 3 can stay out of so many of them. those that are suppose to come. never come. wander where are the committment from them. oh ya. the girls still say we are fierce. but that is normally what we do what. like that also fierce?

enrolment is just one week away, but haven really got yhe chance to have a proper rehersal. so time i hate AQ. everything AQ AQ, so many went for the training.

everday when pastor joseph share, i have a very great burden in my heart for grandma, daddy and mummy. all my family members. i really want them to come and know christ. accept christ. know that Jesus is the true God. not all the idol that they are praying to. the burden is so great. i don want to be in heaven while they are in hell. i don want to live happily with God while they suffer in hell!

but i myself must first get back to God. i really must. but all i have been doing is say and no do.
"what is the point of saying and thinking? if no action is taken. all the saying and thinking are in vain.". i am now still at the starting point. from then till now. haven even taken a step out. pray God will bring me back. i want to be back.

i do not need anything but his works in my life. i do not want the others fishes in the sea. so i want is my shepherd!

2008-03-21T00:39:00.003+08:00

today is book out day!

this week was very much different from last week. last week was much of a welcoming week, so everything was relax. all instructors are relax and stuff. this week start our physical training liao. quite tough for someone like me who don exercise much.

did exercise like "head turning left to right", "arms stretching exercise", "chest expanding exercise", "jumping jet" and many more. what is the most difficult should be power leg ba. starting is still quite easy, but once you do alot and hold it there. cannot tahan sia. haha. so tiring.

they told us next week will be even more tougher, dunno how going to survive. this week already so tiring, next week "even more tough". am i gonna die in there?

oh ya. they brought us to see the "DB" on mon. it is just like prison. never want to go in there!

dunno when my heart so pain. last time sec 4 use to have it for a while, den never happened again. but now when typing can feel abit pain. haha. but don wanna see doc den cannot do all the training. like that i sure fail my IPPT!

book in day? Sunday. 23.03.2008. 1945 hours.

2008-03-15T22:31:00.002+08:00

lol. today went for the rehersal for the GOH de. quite ok la.. their drill still not bad. can make it. just that we still can inprove alot on it though!

because today was very hot. some more first rehersal. so was quite slack. the girls went to tell audrey that was very slack. so next week no more Mr. Nice Guy liao. will make sure you all get a tough tough de training liao. time also running out liao, so cannot slack any more too.
so next week if don polish and stuff. don blame me!

went with john sir they all to ACS[I] to collect the AQ equipment. went to cycle for a while. almost got into a accident while talking to wr. den come back to school after that.

took a sit down a look at the parade square. bring back so many memories. the way school loook also change alot le. things that last time don have now all have le. so many changes. look back and think. quite fun also. also found the squad roll book when we also was a private. so many memories was brought back.

tomorrow need to book in liao. so sian. when outside time flies. inside is like so long wan!

ORD date 10 March 2010. so long!

2008-03-14T21:30:00.002+08:00

Our Mission

To protect and save lives and property for a safe and secure Singapore

Our Vision

To be a World Class organisation providing fire-fighting, rescue, and emergency ambulance services through professionalism, operational excellence and service quality.

Our Core Values

Pride

We take PRIDE in saving lives and property.

We carry out our duties professionally and effectively even under difficult situations. We are a disciplined and united Force, dedicated to our mission. We are resourceful and innovative in our work, always striving towards operational and service excellence. We are a reliable force that the community is able to recognise and appreciate.

Care

We CARE for our people and those we serve.

We are passionate in our work and compassionate towards those we serve. We are sensitive to the needs to our customers and responsive to their expectations. We provide our services with a "heart" as the national life-saving Force.

this are all that i have been learning for the past few days. this week still quite relax la. eat alot and have a lot of lesson. but next week onwards no more liao. will be training and training so that we all can pass our ippt.

this four days learn how different army is different from BB. is army they will just use the F word to scold you. will just pump you. and you cannot argue back like what the boys normally do. but something i like is i become a recruit and don need to be leading. quite nice. maybe been a primer for so long. now can let people lead and i just follow. quite fun you know.

got into bravo company. platoon 5. call ourselves warriors! everday is like do the same thing de la. training and eat. after dinner free time. quite good la. in there alot of malays sia. not quite use to it. espically today when all go their prayer. i feel like wa. relax.. when they come back de sian liao. must slowly get use to it. got to be with them for the next 4 weeks.

today when book out feel so happy. wonder when ORD how i will feel. haha. the moment when get back my pink ic. got my 11b today. haha. during camp think got lots of things to write de. but now forget liao. haha.

again ba. sun 1945 need book in. sian!

2008-03-11T00:20:00.002+08:00

now is 0021 hours.

1000 hours will be in as a NSF for civil defence. times really flies. last year when recieve, was counting down to this day. now it is finally here le. dunno what to expect for civil defence. haha.

today went to have lunch and watch movie with sharon. watch the rule number one. find the end very weird. it like don really understand what the movie means.

wesley sir gave me a call and told me he will be keeping me in his prayers. thanks alot. but den he also thanks me for all i had done in BB and stuff. felt that i don really deserve it. to be frank didnt really contributed much to the company also. look back and think. never done much also ma. so i don deserve the thanks and all the stuff!

did something very bad today. quarrel with mum over hamster stuff. made her very sad. but she went to bought me a cake to celebrate my birthday in the afternnon.when my brother told me, i felt so ashamed of myself. went to apologise to her and everything was fine. had a early birthday celebration! love all of them alot.

that all la. 0037. soon le. haha.
will miss:
dad
mum
brothers
bobby
sharon
BB
friends
food!
freedom
computer
SCV[liverpool's matches]
soccer
my bed and pillow.
and many more. but cant think of it now.

till then!

2008-03-10T01:34:00.002+08:00

went for uncle's wedding today. lol. compare to smallest uncle's wedding. his is very simple. which is good la. no point making it too grand. cost lots of money is one thing.

friday and yesterday went to rtc camp. quite ok la. nvr really do anything much. went around taking photo most of the time. and alf was like quite stress and sad throughout the whole camp because of his result. pray that he will receive direction from God on what he want to do. had a primers bible-study among the 4 of us during sat morning. ended at 4am when we need to be awake at 6am. but still manage to pull through the day. God answered our prayer of granting us the strength we need! Praise the Lord!
disturb audrey during the enrolment meeting. me and wr keep winking at her. den he reaction is so funny. haha.

went to cut my hair today. just now when see my hair coming down. den when look into the mirror. my head started to be bald. the feeling is like. haha. now my hair is totally gone. den the most funny is during the morning when we took family photo i still have hair. den just now when dinner we took photo i was botak! haha.

tmr i will be going in le. a new chapter in my life le. still dunno what i need to prepare! haha.

will update on the 20Th when i come out!
till then.

all will be missed. especially you!

ps. wish uncle a happy marriage!

2008-02-22T01:05:00.002+08:00

the date read 22nd february 2008.

quite alot of events happened in this month.
~got chinese new year in the first week.
~valentine's day in the second week, follow by our holiday at KL.
~this week even more. the HK actress died. someone from my family tree died[don really know who is he la. got link de den correct liao]. singapore won the bidding for the youth olympics.

just now we got into a police road-block!! got screen by them. den i didnt bring my IC! so gave them the suntec card. lucky got my picture and IC number. den they tell me next time need to bring IC out. haha. den danny sir never put his v-plate. den got warning. haha. lol.

oh ya. looking for handphones or mp3? all selling at a cheap cheap price! visit
http://mobilecrazydeals.blogspot.com/. den see if got anything your interested in de not. quite cheap. den no scam de. real wan!

counting down still continues. 20 days more. civil defence here qicheng come! =)

2008-02-19T01:17:00.003+08:00

just came back from holidays from KL. throughout these 3 days. had quite some fun and also learn quite a number of new things!

first day went to take bus from golden mile at 9. took us almost 5 hours to reach our hotel. what a long ride! went to yong peng and me and wr bought a digimon. last time i ever saw one was like so many years ago. bring back memories! haha.
went to visit 1st KL company. the kids there are very cute. still remember the black boy who wore the chinese shirt. the boys there are so different from those in Singapore. the boys there will do the things been told. not like ours. stand there and watch. like things will happen by itself. they are all very warm also. they will come and shake our hands and say hi to us. i really like the new year celebration they have. very nice and want to plan one for our company next year! invite brigade president down. haha. really want to plan for one for out company next year!

second day we did lots of shopping. went to KLCC. Time Square. but all these shopping centre that we went to. is like our causeway point. like not difference one. so even when i'm in kl. i'm just like shopping in causeway point. but the shop i went to are all mostly selling sport wear de. the rest don really interest me!

today came back le. quite fast lo. the driver only took around 4 hours to reach singapore. once again step into my homeland. haha. over there spend money like nothing because its like quite cheap to us. spend alot on food. eat alot these three days. haha. we tried to use malaysia tone to speak chinese when we are there. quite fun. oh ya. alot of people always ask the same question when we walk down the street. "yao an mo ma?" some even came and ask "yao xiao jie ma?". also found out why taxi drivers in malaysia don take people by meter, always by an agreed price. one more very cute thing. in malaysia is you first then you win de. to cross the road. if i cross first. car have to wait for me. if they crive first. then i have to wait for them. not like in singapore where we have traffic light de. haha.

so much so for KL!
again!

2008-02-14T19:01:00.002+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!

those who do not have one. don't give up. coming already!
those who have one. wish you have a good time. if celebrating today. remeber wear helmet!

2008-02-01T11:54:00.001+08:00

today is the first day of feb 2008 liao. so fast jan is gone and past le. first month of the year is still ok la. went to camelot for 3 camp and as belayer and kayaking instrcutor also.

times really flies so fast. now is already 1st liao. 5 more day will be new year eve le. and it will be chinese new year le. dunno why. but i only like the build up to chinese new year. but don like the day when new year come. is like will be going to grandma house for the whole day. but we will have nothing to do at all. the adult will be gambling but we will have nothing to do. it like very boring lo.

oh ya. got to know alot of new friends at camelot. people like kee onn. dee. kennenth. melissa. nd 2 of them is mixed blood de. haha. the more camp i do there. the more people i get to know and also the more i get to learn from them. even the pay there is not really good. but it is nice working there. took northlight school this monday to wednesday. the student might be ah bang and stuff. but my group is quite a nice group la. haha. they will listen when we talk to them. just that they are very slow to take in only.

yesterday night went to play our "last soccer". haha. because zilin is going into army soon le. so is like this is the "last soccer" before he go in. haha. had alot of fun. took alot of pictures. but of course dont want that to be the last soccer together with them. still want to play. lol. maybe 5 years later. when all have finish army and all become dad? haha. who knows?

2008-01-24T23:45:00.001+08:00

yesterday came back from camp at camelot. to be frank. didnt really like the camp. this time round took pasir ris secondary. the students might be bad and stuff. but the teachers to be frank. are even more worst then the students themselves. one of the trainer also did something i felt he shouldn't have done.

first day had a roughly 10.6 km walk with the kids from their school all the way to CCAC. the walk quite ok la. just like normal expentition walk to me la. see the kids not really bad la. they still can talk to one another just that we need to push them alot then the will do the things we ask them to do. but they really don't listen to instructions given to them de. but first day, so cant blame them also. there were also 15 korean students that came to the camp. but i really pity the students. is like they come for exchange programme, then they gana so many shit stuff. like only 3 mins to bathe. got to wake up and cant sleep. get scolded with word that are so insulting. is like i really pity them lo. i rather i never had them in the camp. sorry korean!

went to catch the house just now. the show not nice. is like i don really get what the movie is trying to say. haha. oh ya.went to eat siam kichten just now. at first only me and sharon. is like i book down the whole place just for two of us. haha. after the show when we went to pasa malan. saw this weird guy doing so stuff. haha. quite funny.

again!

2008-01-11T23:25:00.000+08:00

lol. jus came back from camp at camelot. this time went as "ah-ta-chi". learn quite alot from the rest of the trainers la. this is the third school i took for camp le. first was Bedok Town Secondary. socond was North Vista Secondary. this time one more special. this time is a all girl school. CHIJ Katong Convent. Haha. At first when they had briefing in the night before the camp. the impression i had from the trainers is that KC girls are not good. cause they said that they are cheeky and can get the male trainers into trouble. but what happened these 3 days spent with them, ok leh. they aren't that bad. my class was a fun bunch of kids. called them "mamypokopants" as they group name. when going back that time so many of them cried. can understand them also. first day we as trainers don really bond with them and be close to them. after so many things second day finally can bond with one another. third day came and they have to go back liao. really had alot of fun with them. gonna remember them, inside my hard-disk le. saved!
ask for alot of camp to run for the rest of the month. now work hard hard. save lots of money for me to enjoy life abit before go into army. no much time left le. just nice today countdown. i only left 2 months before i go into army. so fast. haha.freedom gonna be taken away!

went to have botak with danny sir, john sir, wr and mel just now. talk quite alot about BB. know what? actually had this thinking of leaving the company once i go into army. so will serve till enrolment and will go. but the passion for 11th coy is once again back in my heart le. sometimes. really cannot take it anymore. say wanna quit wanna quit. but bb had become a part of my life that if i don go bb. is like something is missing somewhere. talk about how we can impact the life of the boys. how we can share the good news and get them saved. how we can train them into good men for the rest of their life. heard wad danny sir and john sir said. totally agree with the both of them. everything in bb is for the boys. think back at what we had talk in the past. i not doing this for myself. but for God and for the boys. God had a very simple job for all christians. to share the good new and let people be saved. we also talk about what is our vision for the future. to take up platoon and platoon so that our company will be run by 11th only. i really likfe the idea man. since we are brought up by 11th. as the pioneering batch for this company. we should stand up and talk over. for it bb that make me who i am today. it the officers in the past impacted me for whom i must thanks them if not i am not capable of doing what i can! so as the primer. i same want to impact my boys that the can be men of God. for one day they can also say i owe it to bb, to 11th coy for what i am today! that will be so great. it will be a great sense of "man zhu gan"!!

one thing i need to confess. very long never do my quiet time. i never read the bible. i never go church. i never listen to God. i never care about God. really wanna get over it. had being backsliding for a very very long time already. really wanna get back on track as soon as possible so that i can get back to God and to be able to do even greater things! danny sir told me something in the camp. "If I myself aren't strong enough. how can I share to my boys? I am as good as those that are good for nothing.". so i really wanna get back on track and do things God want me to do it. prayers would be greatly "thanked"!

still got many things. but very tired le. 3 night never had a good sleep le. now i go sleep le.
till then!

2008-01-05T12:38:00.000+08:00

went to work at suntec banquet yesterday. is like sort of wedding dinner type de. we will be the waiter. den is one hour 6 bucks. ok la. for the first 2 hours plus we will be doing nothing de. but den they are so organise man.

for the guys the socks must be black. den pants must not be jeans. so many rules de. haha. when reach there need to do so many things. den still got a captain to follow. den dunno who was my captain in the first place. so blur blur de. haha. but hope second time round won le. den they will brief u how to cut the fish and stuff. haha. quite fun. it's another type of experience. but work le very tired sia. have to carry so many things. den yesterday the events so big sia. got so many of us working. den the number is about 300 tables of them. haha. 10 times our chinese wedding. haha. if one day my wedding i can hav 300 tables. i will be so rich le. haha. but i can only dream.

will be going to work on the 12th again. if wanna work ask me? den will help u ask see whether can not. haha.

till then.

2008-01-03T22:43:00.000+08:00

2008 year first post.

3 days into 2008. things are still fine at the moment. counting down to march 11. still got 2 months and 8 days. these are the days left before i'm being taken in for 2 years.

went to get my "bootes"[dunno izzit like that spell not] yesterday. dunno that it is at beach road de army market. so i went all the way to queenstown shopping centre and look for it. den gave wr and call and found out it was at beach road. man i was like making a waste trip. went to bugis to have mango sago pamelo with sharon before that. if knew it is at beach road. den don need go all the way to queensway shopping centre liao. next time ask first before do anything. "clever enuf.don act clever!"

today went down to interview for a waiter work at suntec. they never ask me anything one. fill up the employment form den can le. ask me tmr go work. so fast. haha. it like never even noe wad type of person i am before hiring me. haha. but it quite high class de. need to wear black shoes and not jeans. lol. like humble house sia.

something that happened in 2007 continued into 2008. she is one that i'm sure i cant get along with forever de. she can never forgive and forget de ba. but i don blame her or will i do anything to her or will i have anything to do with her liao. she is she and i am i. so don need to care about her. just hope sharon won get affected by what they say. hope God will touch her one day. but whatever it is. her life. her things. not mine! wish her luck in things that she do. i don need anything from her. so hope she noe something that is must leave some "qin" for people. for she may be high up there today. she might not noe when she need people's help. so getting along with people is impt!

2007-12-31T21:39:00.000+08:00

today is the last day of 2007 liao. so fast 2007 come to an end liao. so many things happened throughout the year. now already 2200 liao.

so many things happened. dunno which to mention first. but learnt from all of them la. don wanna make the same mistake in the year 2008.

going into CD in march le. soon will be from boy to man le. den will need to face even more things den now le. grown up lo. haha. that wad dad always say me. 长大了，要自己会想。 must know how to be a man le. hope can get intop school and study once army come out. this will be my 2008 new year "something" la. dunno how to spell.

today went to lot 1 to see movie with sharon. now i know why wei rong like to go there and watch movie liao. haha. because there is better la. dunno how to say, but den is better that sun plaza and causeway. went to eat pasta. saw a bunch of crazy girl. take photo. make so much noise, like never eat pasta before. den take photo so many times. sometimes just cannot stand these type of people. den my wife nag at me when we was eating dinner. haha. i always spend money like tap water running. den she nag and nag at me. quite funny looking at her nagging at me. because never see her nag so long before. but is because she care den she nag de wad. if not she nag for wad. den i telling her "可以的。"

God will make a way when there seems to be no way!

2007-12-27T23:00:00.000+08:00

today went to funan it mall and work as e promoter for fujistu. haha. e basic pay is nopt good la. oly $30.but den per com sold is $20 lo. haha. today oly went to take e lift once. haha. so today got got $50 pay. tmr will still be goin. haha. wish better luck. lol.

yesterday liverpool won 2-1 against derby. who say we cant challenge for the title? it still so early to say. we can do it de. this is our year. this is liverpool's year. we will be the champions of england and europe!!

yesterday did something i shouldnt had done. cant don admit tat i'm at fault for losing my anger. but dunno why i jus cant put down my pride and apologise to her. even if she won accept it. i should have done it becoz God sae we should forgive and love one another as we are all His children. Pls pray for me that i can put down my pride and just say sorry to her no matter what the overcome is.

2007-12-25T23:07:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas to all. whether you are gong or mu.big or small.long or short.fat or skinny.wish all a merry christmas.

came back from orchard in the morning.went to sign ktv with fabian they all.den before that was walking around orchard.this year like not many ppl go liao.but den the singaporean all very cute.go spray the snow thingy all e the "blacky".during the ktv nvr sing at all.haha.jus sing there till wanna slp.but den they all sing like killing chicken.wanna slp well oso cannot.wonder how ZL and GL can slp so soundly.den when comin back that time saw a malay couple.dunno wad happen la.but den end up hugging and crying?should be something bad happened ba.

Today went to city hall with sharon and ah hong.den saw this sign that write "should cow wear bras?".haha.dunno leh.cow should wear not?or should say animals should wear not.lol.den went to eat pizza hut at suntec city.the service is really very very bad.the manager took the order.and even repeat the order.den nvr key in.den we hav to wait.den second time is make wrong order.den she in the end gav the pizza free to us.like tat ok la.haha.

write till here.now goin to eat supper with they all.haha.
once again Wish all a Merry Xmas

2007-12-21T00:07:00.000+08:00

today went to watch the warlord. not bad la. quite nice.
den learn some very funny things..

兄弟杀我兄弟者，必杀之！
抢他们的钱，抢他们的食，抢他们的娘们！

but den learn something is this. ask yourself. is brothers more impt or fame more impt?would u kill ur bro to get to the highest position?

2007-12-19T01:05:00.000+08:00

second post. See ppl blog so many post. mine oly 2. haha.
lol. get to wad i wanna write today ba.

went to watch the golden compass today. the show is like.. so so so so lame.. haha.. sometimes i watch till i can be e director. haha. confirm is the girl that can read the compass. den every adult is waiting for her to arrive or smth de.. lame lo.. dunno how come got ppl write such stupid books de.. haha.. same as that da vinci code.. all wanna shoot God.. more like shooting themselves instead!! but i like e big bear bear.. haha. IS THAT ALL?? but den e ending like kns de leh. e girl say we can do something bout it.. den end liao. nvr say what happen.. Stupid ending.. haha..

Den came home my mum told me that army send me a letter. Den i saw the enlistment notice written on it. den i oso saw white paper.. den remember adrain de oso white paper.. den i so happy.. den i saw We are pleased to inform you that you have benn selected into the SINGAPORE CIVIL DEFENCE FORCE (SCDF) for your national service. so sian man.. how come is civil defence. not police?? but den nvm la.. a new beginning oso la.. won noe wad i will learn inside ma.. haha.. always look on e bright side!!

ok liao la.. lazy to write liao..

First Post

2007-12-17T00:16:00.000+08:00

This is the first post for this blog. Took damn long to get it done with the skins and stuff.. Haha..

Last time used to have one.. Den very long nvr write.. Den now "backside itchy".. den come write again..

Jus finish watching the match between liverpool and man united. Lost 1-0. Quite disappointed. But no worries.. we can bounce back de!!

Write till here.. Write agian next time